warning, this is dark

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A friend of mine & former college roommate had been struggling with mental illness for the past few years. She suffered from major depression disorder, generalized anxiety disorder and borderline personality disorder. She had struggled so much.

Last week she decided to end her life. I've always felt that suicide was the biggest cop-out, and so selfish. With her I dont feel that way though. I feel that she tried as hard as she could, but just couldnt make it in this world.

She blogged about her experiences in mental hospitals. It is a very interesting, but dark and depressing, read about a person who is struggling so much inside but is able to capture how she is feeling very well on paper. It also details about her treatment and her struggles with her treatment. She ended up getting kicked out of the treatment center because they found out about her blog, and she took a road trip back to Arizona with her father and took her life when she got back.

I really dont know if I should post this or not, but her writing is so interesting, that maybe it could help people understand what people with mental illness feel like. I feel so sorry for her, but I'm happy she finally has peace. There could very well be a book or movie made about her writings someday.. these are just some of her writings.. she has journaled and written screen plays her whole life. IQ off the charts... maybe two smart for her own good.

I just kind of feel the need to get her words out there. And I very much apologize if this is not appropriate, if people feel that way this thread can be deleted.

http://kristyashley.wordpress.com/the-mclooney-posts/

that is the link to her posts about the hospital she was in. You kinda have to start from the bottom of the page and make your way up if you read it. she also has poetry and other journal entries under "General" and "Mental Illness" sections. RIP girl.