Life Is So Much Better Today

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Just a little update from me for those that might be wondering. Yeah, I'm patting myself on the back to a bunch of people on a message board that I have never met, but yet I have met a few of you in person. No matter, I just really enjoy sharing my experience.

In the past couple of months I have been clean and sober just shy of two months. Was I perfect from the start, no. I choose after a period of not drinking to try it again, with the same result, insanity. I finally choose to be in control and when I drink alcohol I loose control. So, today I have the will power to say no when the opportunity to drink is there and I move on.

Has it been easy? Hell no, but as each day goes by it gets easier. I am in the process, and will be to the day I die, of changing my life in all aspects. When I have a bad day now I choose to not drink, alcohol does not fix any problems. Sure, you will temporarily feel "no pain" but remorse and your problems will still be there with a good chance of them being worse. My life revolved around alcohol so when I surrendered I knew from what others shared with me that in order for me to be in control I would have to change the way I live. The people, places and things that I knew would not work if I was to get better, so it will be a work in progress. A journey that I love.

So here it is, another day I have choosen to be in control and I love it. I am so much better physically, mentally and spiritually that words can not do it justice.

I pray every morning and every night now. I believe in a higher power and am so gratefull to be alive today. Tomorrow I will deal with when it comes cause today is all I gotta worry about. Small steps I take every day in the hopes for a better tomorrow.